At this point I have no readers and I have no idea if I ever will. I’m laying here in bed writing this post because I feel an unending urge to blog. I’ve felt it this whole pregnancy. But I’ve stopped myself thinking, “who cares what I have to say?” But see I care and what if I just want something for my baby girl to look back at to see how crazy her mom was and how much fun she had baking her in the oven? The biggest reason I think blogging has been on my heart is because I am kind of alone in this pregnancy thing. I lost my mother in 2013 after a very long battle with cancer. She had been a lifelong drug user and had mental health issues so I mourned her loss a long time ago. But when I found out I was having a baby girl, a whole wave of feelings came over me. Even if she wasn’t a good mom, how was I going to do this without a mom? Sometimes girls just need their mommy and need advice! What was I going to do? I got over it quickly just like I had many times in the last, facing reality that she just wasn’t going to be there for me. I think now that I want to share my experience with others because I don’t want to feel alone. There has to be other women out there with the same exact issues as me. The same exact mommy issues that are building families and making babies asking the world, “how the heck are they going to do this with such bad instruction?”
So here I am, 7 months pregnant. I’m going to offer my advice, my experience, my trail of tears and happiness in making my own family. Making the family I never had and have dreamed of my ENTIRE life.
Welcome to, NursetoMama!